Monday, April 20, 2009

Still kicking

I am doing more, physically, lately than I have done for quite a long time and am still feeling amazingly well.... Only slight pain on most days. I am amazed at how weak my right leg is. I have favored my right leg for so long now that I am now paying for it. So to notice my leg more than the fibro must mean something good.

I went to the MTC this morning and then to my 12 step meeting this afternoon. I really enjoyed both but needed to rest for a while after I got home. It's so good to feel good. It was such a beautiful day today. Jenny and a couple of little neighbor girls came and played in my living room for a while today while Michelle was on the computer. It was good to see them having fun together and they all cleaned up the tinker toys without any complaint.

I am so blessed,
life is so good.

Mither

Thursday, April 16, 2009

12 Step Meetings

So, I've been attending the LDS 12 step meetings for several days now and am impressed with the people that come. They are so ready to give up their addictions but also very vulnerable. They have such a strong desire to repent and get on with their lives. Some of them will relapse and not come for a time but they usually come back after a few months. It has been good to see several old timers who were there 10 years ago when I was going to the LDS meetings. It makes me realize that those who keep going to meetings achieve the greatest recovery.

I am also excited about the new literature they are working on. They have one that tells how to get a support person (a sponsor in regular 12 step meetings) that is going to be very helpful. They didn't encourage sponsors 10 years ago but now I think they see that without a "support person" people didn't quite get the help the needed.

I can't wait to get my mission call so I can get started.

{{{hugs}}}

Mither

Friday, April 10, 2009

I must be crazy...

I am so sick that I can't believe I'm sitting at this computer. As I said I must be crazy, but I had to tell Michelle that DiNozzo gets to be rather annoying after 40 shows. Nobody is that much of a Chauvinist. I hate that Kate and Jenny get killed off but I really like Ziva.

So that's all I can sit up for.

Short post for me, huh!

Lubs, Mither

Thursday, April 9, 2009

I'm Back Again

I know, it's been a long time since I've written. But when I do write, I write alot.

So, alot has happened since I last wrote. I've finally gotten a sponsor, ( after 10 years in the OA 12 step program) I'm writing every day, making phone calls every week, reading the literature, (especially the AA Big Book) every day, I've been abstinent for 10 days (I know, not very many days yet but it's a good start) and I have a really good plan of eating that I am sticking to. That's all a big deal in the program. But the program isn't about the food and all that. It's about getting on the right foot spiritually, with Heavenly Father. I'm so excited about it. I expect to see a dramatic weight loss over the next few months and year. It should be much greater than the 15 lbs. I lost last year. Stay tuned in for further updates. I thank Heavenly Father that I'm finally abstinent (means not compulsively eating) and that I'm so much more in touch with Him.

Anyway, another new thing that has happened as a result of my new found relationship with God is that I will be going on another Church Service Mission for the Lord. Wonder of wonders, it will be as a missionary to the church's drug and alcoholic's 12 step program. I will be putting in my papers today and it will be sometime between 2 and 5 weeks before I get my call. I am so happy about this.

The whole mission thing happened after two dreams that lead me to going to my OA meeting that I hadn't been to in a month because I was so sick withe the fibromyalgia. At that meeting I met the perfect sponsor for me. she agreed to sponsor me and then, after about 9 years of not going to any of the Church's 12 step programs, I happened to drop in at the very end of a meeting and met Pat, my long lost 12 step friend. She had been looking for someone to be a partner as a missionary to the program. I jumped at the chance as I had been looking to start another mission (I thought as an investigator at the MTC) but when this opportunity came I knew it was the Lord's will that I go on this 12 step mission.

After praying about it several days, I feel sure that's where the Lord wants me. I was concerned because the fibro. still isn't in control yet but I feel strongly that I am doing the right thing. I have been praying to have the Lord take the fibro., away completely as he said he would do a few weeks ago in a blessing. Actually, the blessing said I could be healed of the fibro. or I could keep it as a way to humble me, it was my choice. I thought at the time that I must have wanted to keep it as it didn't go away, but now I see it would be better to be healed so my mission won't be affected. I would appreciate any prayers in my behalf that I will be healed. Regardless, I will be going on the mission. It would just be easier to do if I didn't have fibro.

Well that''s all for now,

Lub-lubs and cyber hugs {{{hug}}} to all