Good News Twice Over

I got to see and hold Emilee and Dan's new baby moments after she was born. I was somewhat frustrated because, through a series of misunderstandings on my part I had to finish eating my dinner in Emilee's room while everyone else got to hold and take pictures of the baby. Not only was I frustrated, I was embarrassed and uncomfortable.

Hmmm. It just occurred to me that I could have finished in the cafeteria and then gone up to the room. Didn't even cross my mind at the time. Now I feel foolish on top of feeling frustrated, embarrassed and uncomfortable. Oh well, The baby is darling but I don't want to steal any of Emilee's thunder by describing her or giving her name.

Good news.... Not as good as Emilee's but right up there with Christmas presents. You might have guessed from my reference to Christmas that I got to weigh again yesterday. Seven more lbs lost for a total of 77 lbs. Good news, again. I need to go to DI to buy new (used) clothes for work and more pants for everyday wear. This is getting more and more fun as I go. It's still hard to find pants that fit right. Always too big in the waist if they fit my hips. But the hips are smaller by 11 inches.

Can't help being THRILLED that Heavenly Father is doing the really hard part - the discipline. I needed the structure and the discipline this program calls for. The structure is the diet itself, and again, the discipline by Heavenly Father. There is no way I would have been successful on my own. I would have lasted 3 or 4 days and then lost enthusiasm and given up as I have done so many times before. (to say nothing of the fact that I wouldn't have been able to gag down all the vegetables that I really enjoy now - have enjoyed from day one.

Hey that's another thing that Heavenly Father is doing for me. Will miracles never cease, in my life? I think not! There is another one starting in my life right now. I'll let you guess. It may become obvious over the next few months. I should give a prize for the first one that guesses. Hmmm. I'll ponder on that one.


Melissa was aghast when she asked if this was the diet for the rest of my life and I intimated it was. But the truth is, it's only for today. I can do for 16 hours what would appall me if I thought I had to do it for the rest of my life. And that's the truth.

The best part about it all is that I've learned that God will do for me what I could never do for myself. All I had to do was ask. The asking was easy. So is all the rest.

Well it's 10 to 1:00 and my alarm is set for 5:00. Hope I can finally sleep.

Loves,

Mither

Small Miracles

Still fighting sleepiness in the mornings, but to my complete surprise, Joe said I got up last night (after taking my ambien and going to bed) and talked to Michelle and Fleicia (incoherently they said - they just laughed off my crazy speech) until very late. He said I had been doing this several nights, not just last night. I have no memory of it at all. That's what ambien will do to you. I wish I could get off of it.

NO WONDER I've had such a HARD time staying awake during the day. I found myself nodding off in my ERC (Employment Resources Center - my Church service mission) Conference yesterday and then jerking awake over and over. How embarrassing!

I've asked Joe to gently suggest to me that I might want to go back to bed because I have to get up at 5:00 in the morning. Apparently, I get feisty and unreasonable when I am in that state. I'm hoping that my alter ego will listen to him and go back to bed. I still plan on getting up at 5:00 a.m.

The small miracle is that even though I got up so early (and then went back to sleep on the couch at 6:30 until 7:30 when I was wakened by a phone call) I still got my art room cleaned up so that I can at least turn around. The boxes of stuff that got put in there "temporarily" are finally gone! Hallelujah!

Now I have no excuse not to paint. Hope there is another small (BIG) miracle that will cause me to actually do it, now.