I am doing more, physically, lately than I have done for quite a long time and am still feeling amazingly well.... Only slight pain on most days. I am amazed at how weak my right leg is. I have favored my right leg for so long now that I am now paying for it. So to notice my leg more than the fibro must mean something good.
I went to the MTC this morning and then to my 12 step meeting this afternoon. I really enjoyed both but needed to rest for a while after I got home. It's so good to feel good. It was such a beautiful day today. Jenny and a couple of little neighbor girls came and played in my living room for a while today while Michelle was on the computer. It was good to see them having fun together and they all cleaned up the tinker toys without any complaint.
I am so blessed,
life is so good.
Mither
Monday, April 20, 2009
Thursday, April 16, 2009
12 Step Meetings
So, I've been attending the LDS 12 step meetings for several days now and am impressed with the people that come. They are so ready to give up their addictions but also very vulnerable. They have such a strong desire to repent and get on with their lives. Some of them will relapse and not come for a time but they usually come back after a few months. It has been good to see several old timers who were there 10 years ago when I was going to the LDS meetings. It makes me realize that those who keep going to meetings achieve the greatest recovery.
I am also excited about the new literature they are working on. They have one that tells how to get a support person (a sponsor in regular 12 step meetings) that is going to be very helpful. They didn't encourage sponsors 10 years ago but now I think they see that without a "support person" people didn't quite get the help the needed.
I can't wait to get my mission call so I can get started.
{{{hugs}}}
Mither
I am also excited about the new literature they are working on. They have one that tells how to get a support person (a sponsor in regular 12 step meetings) that is going to be very helpful. They didn't encourage sponsors 10 years ago but now I think they see that without a "support person" people didn't quite get the help the needed.
I can't wait to get my mission call so I can get started.
{{{hugs}}}
Mither
Friday, April 10, 2009
I must be crazy...
I am so sick that I can't believe I'm sitting at this computer. As I said I must be crazy, but I had to tell Michelle that DiNozzo gets to be rather annoying after 40 shows. Nobody is that much of a Chauvinist. I hate that Kate and Jenny get killed off but I really like Ziva.
So that's all I can sit up for.
Short post for me, huh!
Lubs, Mither
So that's all I can sit up for.
Short post for me, huh!
Lubs, Mither
Thursday, April 9, 2009
I'm Back Again
I know, it's been a long time since I've written. But when I do write, I write alot.
So, alot has happened since I last wrote. I've finally gotten a sponsor, ( after 10 years in the OA 12 step program) I'm writing every day, making phone calls every week, reading the literature, (especially the AA Big Book) every day, I've been abstinent for 10 days (I know, not very many days yet but it's a good start) and I have a really good plan of eating that I am sticking to. That's all a big deal in the program. But the program isn't about the food and all that. It's about getting on the right foot spiritually, with Heavenly Father. I'm so excited about it. I expect to see a dramatic weight loss over the next few months and year. It should be much greater than the 15 lbs. I lost last year. Stay tuned in for further updates. I thank Heavenly Father that I'm finally abstinent (means not compulsively eating) and that I'm so much more in touch with Him.
Anyway, another new thing that has happened as a result of my new found relationship with God is that I will be going on another Church Service Mission for the Lord. Wonder of wonders, it will be as a missionary to the church's drug and alcoholic's 12 step program. I will be putting in my papers today and it will be sometime between 2 and 5 weeks before I get my call. I am so happy about this.
The whole mission thing happened after two dreams that lead me to going to my OA meeting that I hadn't been to in a month because I was so sick withe the fibromyalgia. At that meeting I met the perfect sponsor for me. she agreed to sponsor me and then, after about 9 years of not going to any of the Church's 12 step programs, I happened to drop in at the very end of a meeting and met Pat, my long lost 12 step friend. She had been looking for someone to be a partner as a missionary to the program. I jumped at the chance as I had been looking to start another mission (I thought as an investigator at the MTC) but when this opportunity came I knew it was the Lord's will that I go on this 12 step mission.
After praying about it several days, I feel sure that's where the Lord wants me. I was concerned because the fibro. still isn't in control yet but I feel strongly that I am doing the right thing. I have been praying to have the Lord take the fibro., away completely as he said he would do a few weeks ago in a blessing. Actually, the blessing said I could be healed of the fibro. or I could keep it as a way to humble me, it was my choice. I thought at the time that I must have wanted to keep it as it didn't go away, but now I see it would be better to be healed so my mission won't be affected. I would appreciate any prayers in my behalf that I will be healed. Regardless, I will be going on the mission. It would just be easier to do if I didn't have fibro.
Well that''s all for now,
Lub-lubs and cyber hugs {{{hug}}} to all
So, alot has happened since I last wrote. I've finally gotten a sponsor, ( after 10 years in the OA 12 step program) I'm writing every day, making phone calls every week, reading the literature, (especially the AA Big Book) every day, I've been abstinent for 10 days (I know, not very many days yet but it's a good start) and I have a really good plan of eating that I am sticking to. That's all a big deal in the program. But the program isn't about the food and all that. It's about getting on the right foot spiritually, with Heavenly Father. I'm so excited about it. I expect to see a dramatic weight loss over the next few months and year. It should be much greater than the 15 lbs. I lost last year. Stay tuned in for further updates. I thank Heavenly Father that I'm finally abstinent (means not compulsively eating) and that I'm so much more in touch with Him.
Anyway, another new thing that has happened as a result of my new found relationship with God is that I will be going on another Church Service Mission for the Lord. Wonder of wonders, it will be as a missionary to the church's drug and alcoholic's 12 step program. I will be putting in my papers today and it will be sometime between 2 and 5 weeks before I get my call. I am so happy about this.
The whole mission thing happened after two dreams that lead me to going to my OA meeting that I hadn't been to in a month because I was so sick withe the fibromyalgia. At that meeting I met the perfect sponsor for me. she agreed to sponsor me and then, after about 9 years of not going to any of the Church's 12 step programs, I happened to drop in at the very end of a meeting and met Pat, my long lost 12 step friend. She had been looking for someone to be a partner as a missionary to the program. I jumped at the chance as I had been looking to start another mission (I thought as an investigator at the MTC) but when this opportunity came I knew it was the Lord's will that I go on this 12 step mission.
After praying about it several days, I feel sure that's where the Lord wants me. I was concerned because the fibro. still isn't in control yet but I feel strongly that I am doing the right thing. I have been praying to have the Lord take the fibro., away completely as he said he would do a few weeks ago in a blessing. Actually, the blessing said I could be healed of the fibro. or I could keep it as a way to humble me, it was my choice. I thought at the time that I must have wanted to keep it as it didn't go away, but now I see it would be better to be healed so my mission won't be affected. I would appreciate any prayers in my behalf that I will be healed. Regardless, I will be going on the mission. It would just be easier to do if I didn't have fibro.
Well that''s all for now,
Lub-lubs and cyber hugs {{{hug}}} to all
Thursday, March 26, 2009
Jon's Birthday, again ( sheesh, you'd think I 'd get this)
So today's My son's birthday. I could go on about what a great guy he is (which he is to say the least) but since everyone knows about all that, I thought I'd write about the day he was born.
I remember on the way to the hospital we were driving by our chapel and I thought to myself that I'd never forget that day. As a result of the seriously heavy medication they gave me at the hospital, I only remember a little of what happened. I was hung over for about three days after his birth from the meds. I do remember them trying to get me to bend at the waist to give me an epidural (who has a waist when they're 9 months along) I could hardly do any bending at all for which they seemed a little put out (dumb doctors) To say I was a little put out with my doctor was putting it mildly because I was so drugged that Jonathan was not breathing when he was born and was a 9 on the apgar scale (10 being dead) They almost lost him. That from one of the nurses who told me after I was conscious a couple of days later. Luckily, we were back in Utah by the time Michael was born. I wouldn't have gone back to that doctor anyway.
Jonathan had colic the first six months of his life. I've wondered if I hadn't nursed him if he would have been better off because after I put him on formula (at six months) he seemed to do better. I remember propping his bottle one time when I was so exhausted I could hardly stand it. I've felt guilty about it ever since every time I think about it. He turned out just fine though.... there doesn't seem to be any lasting effects from it.
He was one of my easiest children to raise and turned in to one of the nicest people I know.
I love you Jonathan.
I remember on the way to the hospital we were driving by our chapel and I thought to myself that I'd never forget that day. As a result of the seriously heavy medication they gave me at the hospital, I only remember a little of what happened. I was hung over for about three days after his birth from the meds. I do remember them trying to get me to bend at the waist to give me an epidural (who has a waist when they're 9 months along) I could hardly do any bending at all for which they seemed a little put out (dumb doctors) To say I was a little put out with my doctor was putting it mildly because I was so drugged that Jonathan was not breathing when he was born and was a 9 on the apgar scale (10 being dead) They almost lost him. That from one of the nurses who told me after I was conscious a couple of days later. Luckily, we were back in Utah by the time Michael was born. I wouldn't have gone back to that doctor anyway.
Jonathan had colic the first six months of his life. I've wondered if I hadn't nursed him if he would have been better off because after I put him on formula (at six months) he seemed to do better. I remember propping his bottle one time when I was so exhausted I could hardly stand it. I've felt guilty about it ever since every time I think about it. He turned out just fine though.... there doesn't seem to be any lasting effects from it.
He was one of my easiest children to raise and turned in to one of the nicest people I know.
I love you Jonathan.
Friday, March 20, 2009
It's Been Awhile
So I noticed on someone else's blog that I hadn't written for over a week. Well not much has happened. I've been sick with fibro. again so I've been trying to rest for the last two weeks. It's been very boring, but I have made a dent in my bedroom and closet ( getting rid of old clothes I no longer wear) and cleaning off my dresser, getting the toys taken downstairs in the closet in the family room, and generally picking things up and putting them where they g0. I've done these thing little at a time (literally a few minutes at a time, say three to five minutes and no longer) it's taken me several days to do it but I feel satisfied that at least progress has been made. I'm going to clean out my linen closet today and get my night stand cleaned off. I know that sounds like such a little goal but that is about the limit that I can reasonably get done and not cause another bad breakout of fibro. again.
I did do some shopping at Dahle's twice in the last two weeks and really aggravated my fibro (because It takes me a long time to shop because I have to try on ten or twelve items to find only four or five that fit.) Any way I went overboard and bought summer and winter clothes that will last me for the next five years or so. You know how they tell us to buy food storage.... well I've now got my clothes storage.
I couldn't resist. Dahle's is going out of business and that is honestly the ONLY place I have been able to find that has clothes that look good on me. I got outfits at prices to good to be true, some of them up to 75% off others at least 30% off after being marked down two or three times before that. I don't know what I'm going to do when these clothes wear out.
It has been nice to have some of my children and their spouses come over and visit while I've been so sick. Jan, Jenn, Emilee, and Jonathan have come with their families. Jonathan came to give me a blessing and so did David. I had one blessing just after Mother died by David and Dad and one about a week later by Jonathan and Dad. It turns out that I had clogged sinuses which I had thought was just another manifestation of the fibro. I had a severe headache along with feeling really, REALLY sick. Immediately after receiving the blessing my headache stopped and my sinuses began to drain. I had a runny nose for about fifteen minutes straight.
The blessings really helped me get through Mother's death and the funeral and then the days after all that. I have been mourning my Mother's death and find I really miss her. I can imagine how she felt when my Father died. I am so happy for her but sad for me. I'm so glad I know I'll see her again.
It's interesting that the second blessing healed me of the sinus trouble and headache but not the fibro. It did warn me to be careful to know my limitations and not go beyond them. I guess that was the Lord's way of saying that the fibro. would still affect me and I would still have to be careful of what I did and how long I was up every day.
That's all for now, I guess. I wish I had more interesting things to write about.
Oh well, Happy Day to all,
Lub-lubs, Mither
I did do some shopping at Dahle's twice in the last two weeks and really aggravated my fibro (because It takes me a long time to shop because I have to try on ten or twelve items to find only four or five that fit.) Any way I went overboard and bought summer and winter clothes that will last me for the next five years or so. You know how they tell us to buy food storage.... well I've now got my clothes storage.
I couldn't resist. Dahle's is going out of business and that is honestly the ONLY place I have been able to find that has clothes that look good on me. I got outfits at prices to good to be true, some of them up to 75% off others at least 30% off after being marked down two or three times before that. I don't know what I'm going to do when these clothes wear out.
It has been nice to have some of my children and their spouses come over and visit while I've been so sick. Jan, Jenn, Emilee, and Jonathan have come with their families. Jonathan came to give me a blessing and so did David. I had one blessing just after Mother died by David and Dad and one about a week later by Jonathan and Dad. It turns out that I had clogged sinuses which I had thought was just another manifestation of the fibro. I had a severe headache along with feeling really, REALLY sick. Immediately after receiving the blessing my headache stopped and my sinuses began to drain. I had a runny nose for about fifteen minutes straight.
The blessings really helped me get through Mother's death and the funeral and then the days after all that. I have been mourning my Mother's death and find I really miss her. I can imagine how she felt when my Father died. I am so happy for her but sad for me. I'm so glad I know I'll see her again.
It's interesting that the second blessing healed me of the sinus trouble and headache but not the fibro. It did warn me to be careful to know my limitations and not go beyond them. I guess that was the Lord's way of saying that the fibro. would still affect me and I would still have to be careful of what I did and how long I was up every day.
That's all for now, I guess. I wish I had more interesting things to write about.
Oh well, Happy Day to all,
Lub-lubs, Mither
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